I Never Will Forget You (Extremely Long)

My head lays on my pillow;
the room is dark and damp.
(-- if I could only see your face,
though I know that I can't)

I try to close my eyes and sleep,
but your face haunts my dreams.
(I feel like I've been torn apart...
I'm broken at the seams.)

I toss and turn; I'm restless.
I know I will not sleep;
(I know that I still think of you.
Do you still think of me?)

My eyes now face the darkness;
the demon's haunting our lives.
(It seems we had it all and more;
Why did you leave me? Why?)

It seems the clock ticks slowly,
and yet our love went by so fast.
(Just where did I go wrong in this,
to make this love not last?)

I sit up smooth, but slowly;
I grip my sheets in my bare hands.
(Why did you have to leave me here?
I just don't understand...)

It seems the night is quiet
as I stand by my dark window.
(You left with not a word to say;
why did you have to go?)

The crickets dance like autumn.
The night is lit like June.
(I'm waiting for you to return;
are you returning soon?)

Laying on my bed once more,
I stare blankly ahead.
(Was this all you or was it me?
Is our love truly dead?)

I feel like such an empty pleasure,
like I could scream aloud this night.
(Was I just living in a dream?
Was nothing really right?)

I watch the seconds pass me by;
The silence fills my heart.
(You know that I am fragile;
do you know I'm torn apart?)

A tear slides down my ghostly face
and falls onto my sheets.
(Were you just playing with my head?
Did you truly love me?)

I close my eyes so gently
as if I am afraid I'll break.
(How did we lose the love we had?
Was all the love a fake?)

The questions lull me into sleep,
a sleep filled with your face.
(I thought that I had melt your heart
which no one could replace?)

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I wake up to a quiet morning
the world is still the same
(you were the best that I had
and now I'm stuck with pain...)

my routine passes quickly by
not consciously awake
(it seems you are the only one
is all this a mistake?)

I feel like going back to bed
but your laugh lingers there
(you said that you would never leave
you said you'd always care)

my breakfast has no taste at all
the news is nothing new
(do you know that I'm hurting now
-- it's all because of you...)

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

driving down a busy street
I skim the crowd for you
(you never even said goodbye
-- there's nothing I can do)

I take a turn off of my route
so that I'll pass your house
(it seems that you were just a cat
-- was I the stupid mouse?)

the numbers pass and yours is near
I speed up just a bit
(you must've known the plan so well
before you got into it...)

and impulse makes me turn abrupt
and I am at your home
(I never thought you'd leave me
-- why'd you leave me all alone?)

I noticed while I parked my car
that five cars sat as well
(did you even try to catch me
do you know I fell?)

with hesitation, I pull through
I walk right to your door
(could have told me what was wrong
do you love me no more?)

I ring the bell and wait for you
it seems I wait so long
(why did you never call me
what ON EARTH did I do wrong???)

the door opens so slowly
I hold my breath in deep
(did you ever even care?
was this make-believe?)

it isn't you who answers
but a woman with tears in her eyes
(were there things that I didn't know?
are there things you still hide?)

I ask to speak with you to her
but sadly she says no
(where'd you disappear to?
why'd you even have to go?)

I scrunch my face and ask her why
-- her answer breaks my heart
(did you ever care for me
you must've meant to break my heart...)

"I'm sorry, he has passed away,
He's been dead for a week..."
(was it true, was it all love?
was death why you left me?)

"...His wake and funeral have passed
his grave's a town away"
(will I never see your face?
not another word you'll say?)

"Did you know him well?" She asks
I nod as tears fall down my face
(you always loved me... you always will
no one will EVER take your place...)

"I was his boyfriend
I've been torn apart
I thought he had left me
-- thought he'd broken my heart..."

She replied, "I know I shouldn't tell you
but I feel that I must
and if I tell you this little secret
will you betray my trust?"

I answered, "Oh, no, I never would do that
trust me with all your heart
I am better now, now that I know
he didn't mean to tear me apart..."

"Dear, he died alone.
-- His death was by suicide
he told no one about his plans
but suddenly took his own life."

I break down crying
the woman kneels down
(why did you do this?
-- I'd have helped you out!?)

with tears flowing down
the woman asks me my name
(without you, my love,
life will not be the same.)

"Stephen, my name is Stephen
I suppose you are his mother?"
(my soul has been broken badly
you'll be replaced by no other.)

"No, I am his aunt,
his mother's dead too
and if you're really Stephen
then he wrote this letter for you..."

I look at the manila envelope
unopened and so smooth...
(Oh, what is inside this death note
-- what have I made you do?)

I opened the letter
so delicate; so scared
(Oh! What have you written?
Just what is in there?)

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Dear Stephen,

By now you must have noticed my absence from your life and that I am no longer among the living. You must have noticed that and thought that I had abandoned you, more now than ever since you are aware that I am never coming back. There is no definite reason for my departure from this world. I hope that you will not have it stuck in your head that it is because of you that I have killed myself. I hope that you are aware that it is not. I would like to tell you something: I have been addicted to many forms of self-mutilation for some time. I have not participated in activities that lack clothes or any activity that reveals skin, in fear that you or someone else, mostly you, would see or notice my scars and think less of me. It seems as if I am not good enough for you or anyone. That I will have no future, that I will never be able to take my shirt off without being self-conscious or reminded of my horrid past, or even present. I just can't... couldn't take it anymore. You seem so perfect... perfect life, perfect friends... it hurts... me being so flawed. I wonder what you saw in me, and if you were just playing games with my head. It drove me crazy. I know you must think it odd, but... there is so much pain coursing through my soul as I write this, I believe I will be at rest in the next life, or wherever death takes me. You may or may not forgive me, and you probably don't understand my reasoning... and most likely never will.
I would like you to have a picture of me, and I hope that you won't rip it up, I hope that you will never let me go, and I hope you will not hate me. Please, do not cry for me so that I can die in peace knowing I did not break your heart or I did not make you choose the same fate as I, myself, did. I hope that everything is and will be okay, and I hope that you will remember all of the good times that the two of us shared, and don't think of my life just by my suicide.

P.S.- Please do not visit my grave. I do not want you to cry for me, and if you visit my grave, I am sure that you will cry.

I guess now It's time to
test my quote:
"All my love; 'til
death then in the ground."

Love,
*****

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I broke into tears as I read the death letter
I knew that it made nothing deep inside better
he was gone, and I knew that he'd never return
no matter how hard I may wish or I'd yearn.

and inside the smooth envelope
he left a lonely picture
his smiling face and his vibrant, blue eyes
(The Boy Who Took his Perfect Life)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I never will forget you
I want to make sure THAT you know
all my love 'till in the ground
(I'll never let you go...)
























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A Ballade of Suicide

The gallows in my garden, people say,
Is new and neat and adequately tall;
I tie the noose on in a knowing way
As one that knots his necktie for a ball;

But just as all the neighbours on the wall
Are drawing a long breath to shout "Hurray!"
The strangest whim has seized me. . . After all
I think I will not hang myself to-day.

To-morrow is the time I get my pay
My uncle's sword is hanging in the hall
I see a little cloud all pink and grey
Perhaps the rector's mother will NOT call
I fancy that I heard from Mr. Gall
That mushrooms could be cooked another way
I never read the works of Juvenal
I think I will not hang myself to-day.

The world will have another washing-day;
The decadents decay; the pedants pall;
And H.G. Wells has found that children play,
And Bernard Shaw discovered that they squall;

Rationalists are growing rational
And through thick woods one finds a stream astray,
So secret that the very sky seems small
I think I will not hang myself to-day.


ENVOI

Prince, I can hear the trumpet of Germinal,
The tumbrils toiling up the terrible way;
Even to-day your royal head may fall
I think I will not hang myself to-day.




A Ballade of Suicide by G.K. Chesterton

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Love Will Live Forever

I could walk a thousand miles,
Just to see your perfect smiles.
Although I see what they don't,
They are missing what I w'ont.

My love will always stay pure and clear,
For your the one I do not fear.
Forever and always I'll stay strong,
For you my dear you are my bond.

Through clouds above and stars beyond,
My love, the thing I'm always fond,
Will stick with you forever end,
Our heart and soul will always blend.

While people might think 

were playing pretend
We will stan to defend
Your in my mind your in my heart,
Nothing can ever break us apart.

Combined as one,
Our life, Our Love 
Will Love Forever. 

Love Forever by Alice Walker

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Love Is ...

Love is precious in many ways.
Love is embrace passion.
Love is eternal happiness.
Love is heart felt emotions.
Love is the understanding of one another.
Love is that special someone.
Love is flying without wings.
Love is the joy you feel with someone.
Love is caring for someone special.
Love is that who touches your heart.
Love is what makes your heart beat.
Love is the healing power of your heart and soul.
Love is that beauty within.
Love is what makes dreams come true.
Love is the fuel of the heart and soul.
Love is the foundation of life.
Love is the meaning of life.




By Jose Aquino

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If Ever You Need Me

If ever you need me,
I'll be right here,
To chase away the sadness,
And wipe away a tear.

If ever you need me,
I'll be two steps behind,
To follow in your footsteps,
And hear what's on your mind.

If ever you need me,
You'll never have to fear,
That your presence isn't important,
And your love isn't dear.

If ever you need me,
I'll always be around,
To bring back the laughter,
Where deep in your heart it's found.

You'll never have to worry,
For I'll always be here,
To chase away the sadness,
And wipe away a tear.

I am here for you !

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In Quest of Love

I slide along the edge of the stream,
Crossing the narrow road leading to it,
Seach in the depth of the fussed ocean,
To find the portion reserved for me !

I wander throughout the universe,
Tracking the silvary, sparkled stars.
Conspicuously, I've been so exhausted,
My naive heart chose not to surrender !

I interrogate the reflective cloud,
It points me to the house of obscurity,
I hasten to go to the peaceful spot,
There was not even the shadow of it !

I had even walked out of boundaries,
To know whether which direction it took,
I crapped out and fell on the wrong road.
However, I was hopeful and undismayed !

Lastly, a quiescent mind appealing me,
Thus, my heart plunges under the ocean,
To strike the accuracy of the true love.
Meanwhile, I hope that it will discern it !





In quest of love by Jhonny Thermidor

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Flame In My Heart

Your eyes are blue and sparkling like the deepest of seas. 
Your presence, like a sweet, summer breeze.
Your hair is glimmering and golden like sun rays.
Oh how you manage to brighten up my days. 

Your nose is beautiful; big and round,
Oh what a wonderful person I have found!
Your lips are smooth and are well formed,
The whole of your body is perfectly adorned. 

Your laughter is like ripples of energy,
That caresses and moves right through me.

Your voice carries the blessing gift of music,
Soft and inviting with a warmth in it. 

The smile that i see on Your face everyday,
Fills me with joy and makes me proud and gay.

You have brought a peace upon my soul
And have planted a flame in my heart.
You are the masterpiece of the universe,
And... I Love You.

Flame In My Heart by Lauren D.

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Deepest Desire

As the sun rises in the East. 
So the breaking dawn of my love begins .
As the sun sets in the West .
I am overwhelmed with a burning desire .
A desire locked down deep inside .
One that cannot be concealed anymore. 

I long for one sweet kiss to quench my thirst. 
I long for one tender touch to last a lifetime. 

At the end of it all you are my deepest desire! 

I love you not today nor tomorrow, but forever!

Deepest Desire by Shy Girl 

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Midnight Fantasy

As I lie in my bed
My thoughts turn to you.
I think of the time
We spent together
And how our love grew.

I miss your voice
As it speaks my name.
I miss your eyes
And how they burn
With a passionate flame.

I want to feel your breath
On my naked skin.
And the touch of your hand
so tender -
Which ignite the fires within.

My mouth deeply hungers
For the sweetness of your lips.
My body craves your touch
As you explore me
With your fingertips.

I want to feel the heat
As the passion quickly builds.
Your caresses and your kisses
Make it easy
For my body and soul to yield.

I want to feel the pleasure
As we feed our lusts and desires.
Your flesh and mine
Becoming one
Burning hot with passion's fire.

Only you can satisfy
And bring me to ecstasy.
Only you can fulfill
My deepest desire
And my midnight fantasy.

By Susan Atkinson

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Like A Dream

Like a dream ...
We were standing together face to face.


Like a dream ...
You were holding me close and my heart began to race.

Like a dream ...
Our eyes met and the world seemed to disappear.

Like a dream ...
We began to dance to music only we could hear.

Like a dream ...
You brushed my cheek and trace my lips tenderly.

Like a dream ...
Our lips met and we kissed passionately.


Like a dream ...
I was with you and I didn't have a care.

Like a dream ...
We shared something only you and I could share.

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My Darling True Love

My Darling

I would rather be somewhere alone with you
Instead of praying you're feeling like I do.
I'd rather be staring into the depths of your eyes
Searching, exploring, knowing, loving ...

My secret, I have decided to disclose to you.
I've never seen you, never met you, never heard
Or smelled, or touched you, never known
But truth be told,

I'm deeply, truly, madly in love with you.
Just because I know that you're in love with me too
And the nights I am secretly needing you
You're longing for me too.
To many, my tears seem insignificant
They're meaningful to you.
Someday our winding paths will meet
And I'll just know, I've found you.

Till that day, we'll have to wait
Because when we find each other
And the depths of hearts are revealed
Our love will be eternal
Worth every tearful moment that we've waited.

Though we are apart for yet another night
Our moment is a day nearer.




By Mimi Mungomba

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The Reasons You Are Beautiful

To the girl whose beauty is present in all seasons
I tell you why you are beautiful, here are the reasons:

Your beauty extends into the heavens,
it goes on forever and never lessens.
Even when the clouds heighten
you are here and the world brightens.
You are like a fruit that constantly ripens
your beauty continues to grow no mater what happens.


My fondness for you constantly deepens
because every time I see you my heart starts to weaken.
You make everything else appear hollow
where ever you are loveliness is sure to follow.

You shine so bright you cast your own shadow
a beauty that others would love to borrow.
But try as they might your beauty they will never catch
because something like you they could never match.

Your beauty seems to increase with every breathe
it tests the limits my imagination can stretch.
It makes me question if what I am seeing is real
I only know it is true by the way that I feel.

Your beauty is so vast it can't be concealed
there is no hiding it your beauty is always revealed.
The power of your beauty is the world's greatest gift
the heaviest boulder it could easily lift.

A girl this perfect I never knew
all that changed the moment I met you.
Heaven on Earth I was not aware
until I met a girl that was crafted with such care.

You would be the answer to a prayer
if someone asked for something rare with beauty to spare.
If I had a choice I would choose this girl over air
for air can't compare to a girl not found elsewhere.




By Daniel Erdle

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Love Fate

 
There is peace in my soul
For such a long awaited time
There is love in my life
A love of melody and rhyme.

Once you took hold of my heart
I knew no other could have reached
As whispered fate took my hand
To levels only you could reach.

You are the soul of my soul
The sea of my heart
The man of my dreams
I can never part.

For only once in a lifetime
Could take hold so fast
What is meant to be
Of a love so vast.

You in my life
Will live eternally.
I knew the first night we met
You were meant for me.


Romantic Fate
By Keya Sommerville
 
  

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Love From The Heart

I fly like a bird
to be where you are,
to spend just an evening
in your place afar.

Beautiful music
and exquisite wine -
never has love been
quite so divine!

But soon I must leave
so kiss me farewell,
the last dance is over
as love stories tell.

I'll never forget
the magic of you,
as I'm flying back home
OH! are you coming too?

Beautiful romance
it's love on the wing,
never has true love
made my heart and soul sing.

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My One and Only Love

There are just so many words
But I can't find one that's perfectly true.

I have said lots of I love yous
Have given you lots of kisses and hugs
I have given you my all
But still those are just not enough.

You're the only one I desire
You're the only one in my heart
Through good and bad times
Nothing can keep us apart.

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Silent Love

The word Love,
Love is something we all can enjoy,
It is something we all can share,
Only with that special someone, 

Who we all care about.
But why are we scared of it?
I don't know why,
But if I wasn't,

I would tell you every time, 
Rain or shine,
Every time we're apart I nearly cry,
Because this love inside of me is strong,
There are no boundaries that it can hide,

I want to scream it out,
But I'm too shy, 
So I wait and watch wishing,
That I had the courage to tell you,
How much I feel inside.

MY LOVE FOR YOU WILL NEVER DIE. 
This is to that special someone. 
I Love You. 

Silent Love Shy Love by Luke W.

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Whispers Of The Night

Listen To The Winds Soft Cry
Of A Lady Singing Her Lullaby
Whispers Of The Night So Long
Wishing For That Famous Love Song

You Are My Light
When Darkness Falls
You Are My Sight
In My Darkened Halls

Hear The Joy Of An Angel's Glee
When The People Around Her Now See
With Eyes So Clear And Pure
All Now Really Can Be Sure

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Be My Valentine

Be my Valentine, my love,
As I will be for you,
And we will love the whole day long,
And love our whole lives through.
For love has no parameters
And does not end with time,
But is the gift of paradise,
A pinch of the sublime.
So let us take this holiday
To resubmit our love
To those within that know no sin
And with the angels move.





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An Angel's Kiss

An Angel's Kiss,
Is like so much bliss.
And that Angel is you.
You know what to do.

You love to make me smile,
Every time I've been sad for a while.
The feelings are growing.
And they are showing.

An Angel's Kiss,
Is something I'm glad exists.
You're someone I know.
And you help me grow.

Please tell me.
How you feel.
So I know.
If it's real.

But it's An Angel's Kiss.
It's something I shall not ever miss.
I love you.
And that I will always do. 

An Angel's Kiss by Morgan Evans

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Sweet Dreams Of Love

I keep thinking of you and I wish on a star that, somewhere, you are thinking of me, too!
Sweet dreams of love, of us holding each other tight and whispering the essence of our loving beings...
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be than here in my room, dreaming about you and me!

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Forever Love

You are my description of love
You are my description of friend
You are my description of everything
You are my description of beginning to end.
You have put me on a pedestal
You make me feel ten feet tall
You've always been there for me
You've loved me through it all.
You've stood by me through thick and thin
You've always been patient and kind
Just thought I'd let you know
You're the owner of this heart of mine.
So you ask how long I'll love you
Well this is what I have to say
Past, present, future, always
Forever and a day!

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